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Heaven, Definitely
12 ReviewsFrank Iero has such strong feelings for fellow band member Gerard Way, but doubts he feels the same. (Frerard One-shot!)
It’s either this was heaven, hell or purgatory. Maybe it was all three at the same time. I was on stage playing Give ‘Em Hell Kid along with the band. Our faces were caked with make-up and Gerard was screaming his lungs out as usual. It was hell because I think I was drunk. It was heaven due to the fact that I had just broken off from a kiss with Gerard, my angel, and my lips were still moist from the event. It was purgatory as well, as… this was Earth and I knew Gerard would never love me.
After every kiss with Gerard I felt differently about him. Sometimes he was this total asshole who was in everyone’s faces. At other times he was, you could say, perfect. His green eyes sparkled when he walked into any room and he was capable of making roomfuls of people smile, laugh, cry and sing their hearts out for him. He had the power to make me feel something I had never felt for another human being, nonetheless of the same sex. Sure I had a girlfriend back in New Jersey, but Gerard was always around me. I barely got to see her and we’d talk on the phone, but it wasn’t the same. My love for Gerard was incomparable to any love on this here Earth. It was like my heart was a puzzle and he was that missing piece you would find after giving up and sitting on the couch, only to find that it was still left in the box.
“Thank you so much L.A.!!!!! So long, and good night!” Gerard screamed, finishing Helena and our two-hour set.
I walked off stage blowing numerous amounts of kisses to all the fans that came to see us. I handed my guitar to a tech backstage and went to sit on one of the spare amps with a bottle of water in hand, ready to be rapidly consumed. I took a long drink, only to have Bob run over to me and tip it over further, spilling across my face, hair and clothes (not that they weren’t already soaked).
“Bob! What the fuck man!? I’m gonna kill you for that!!!” I ran after him, dodging the many people as he went out the back entrance onto the small grass patch.
“Hey. Hey Frank… I was just getting back at you for earlier.” He said in defense, catching his breath as he sat on a picnic bench.
We laughed it off and returned inside, only to have the rest of the band look at us like we were crazy. We filed into the dressing room, me getting a towel and wiping my face and trying to dry off my water and sweat soaked bangs. From the corner of my eye I noticed Gerard looking at me from behind. I was bending over on an open backed chair so I figured he was just messing with me.
“I know I’m sexy Gerard, just… don’t look at me like that!” I teased getting up and walking over to him.
“But I can’t help it Frank!” He got up as well and smacked my ass.
“Okay guys… On stage was enough… but this?” Mikey said walking by, drinking a bottle of Coke Zero.
“Save it for the stage okay?” Bob added.
“Fine.” I got up and walked to the table with food on it. I was so hungry it wasn’t funny. I picked up a stick of celery and dipped in what ever the dip was… I didn’t care. Anything was good right about now.
I heard someone yell that we had fifteen minutes before we had to go back to the bus and head off for the next city. It didn’t seem like long but really we were back there just hanging out for over an hour. I hated all this traveling and found the bunks claustrophobic but it was better than before, sleeping on each other and stuff. It might have been better, but to tell you the truth, I enjoyed having my head rest on Gerard’s lap for hours, waiting to get to the next place, pretending to be asleep. I was the first to leave the venue, closely followed by Gerard. Fans lined the way to the bus as I gladly signed autographs. I felt someone grab my ass just then and so many flashes of cameras went off I swear it made me blind for a second. Obviously it was Gerard behind me, who now had his arm around me as we made our way into the bus. I knew he was just doing that for the fans, but to me I wish he meant it, not in a best friend way, but a deeper way. The Gerard Way. I think Mikey was eyeing us from behind, attempting to sign a poster or two. He looked disturbed watching us get into the bus. I stuck my tongue out at him and turned around.
Gerard broke away from me and sat down at the little round table, lighting a cigarette. I headed straight to the bunkroom to change my clothes into something not as constricting. I was wearing my usual bulletproof vest with a dress shirt, black slacks and a red tie. I found a nice black hoodie and jeans to wear as I slipped in and out of my clothes. As for the makeup, I didn’t really care, I just took a moist cloth and wiped as much as I could off my face. I could fix myself once we got to the next show.
Soon enough, we were on the highway again. I heard road noises and the chatter of people coming from the other room. I was still in the bunkroom, about to head out the door. As I turned the handle, there was someone at the other side who turned it at the exact same time. I pulled the door back as he pushed forward. Of course, it had to be Gerard. I was waiting to see his perfectly pale face and his dreamy emerald eyes. I so desperately wanted to have another taste of his lips and maybe this was the right moment. I swung the door open and rushed into his arms, bringing my face just close enough to give him a kiss.
“What the hell are you doing Frank!?”
“Oh shit!!” I said, not realizing who it was.
“Did you think I was G- Oh my god Frank… Ew!!!”
He ran into the bathroom and I heard the water running. At this point I just wanted to go and die. Then behind him, I saw Mikey and Bob… staring with a great intensity at me, then breaking into loud laughter, uncontrollable laughter at the event that had just witnessed.
“Good job Frank! You really did it this time!” Bob said between the laughter.
“Shut up Bob!!!”
“What the hell is going on here?” Gerard came over as everyone stared at him.
“N-n-nothing…” I attempted to cover my mistake.
“Gerard! You should have seen it! Frank just came out and he, and he-” Mikey continued to laugh before finish his sentence.
“He kissed Ray Toro!!!” Bob yelled out to the heavens.
I saw Gerard’s face then. It was a mix of horror, disgust and tears. He ran as fast as he could into the bunkroom, collapsing into his bunk and shutting the curtain. I didn’t know what was going on the least bit. It’s either that Gerard was crying from laughter and how awkward the situation was, or it was because something was burning inside him. I was convinced at the moment that he did love me. More than a best friend love. I pushed my way through a still laughing Bob and Mikey, to go talk to Gerard. I needed to get it out of me.
“G-Gee? Can I come in? It’s just Frank…”
He pushed aside the curtain, letting me know that it was okay to enter. I joined him inside the tiny, dark space, pulling back the curtain as I sat down. I felt his breathing, as he was so close to me, probably a few inches apart. His sobs filled my ears, and it made me want to cry too. I was so confused right now and I didn’t have a proper explanation for the situation. I couldn’t look Gerard in the eyes. It was too painful for me. I longed to be with this man and I was 99% sure he was straight, leaving the 1% for those intimate moments onstage. Neither of us dared to utter a word. I knew I did it in fear of what would happen next. It felt like my heart was just falling to the floor, and was just coming to the point of shattering.
With that, Gerard whispered, “I’m sorry Frank…”
Why was he sorry? This was my fault. I screwed up. Trying to gather myself I said, “It’s not you Gee… It’s me. You’re p-perfect… and I-I l-love… you…”
“W-w-what??” Gerard’s voice was shaking as he let out a sob.
“I l-love you Gerard Way…”
Just then Gerard collapsed into my arms, me barely having enough time to catch him. I looked down and finally had enough courage to stare into his gold-green eyes. I felt him looking into mine as well, his eyes sparkling. I was still extremely confused as to what was happening. Did Gerard really love me? I’d never know unless I asked. I just said three words, that could have changed how Gerard saw me forever, but I knew that it really might have been better off this way.
“Frank…” He began to say, “I think that you’re such an amazing person… and I knew since the day I met you that we’d always have something special.”
He moved his head upwards towards mine and pursed his lips so slightly before they met mine. This was it. I was really kissing Gerard Way, offstage! Compared to our stage kisses, this one was so gentle and tender, not the least bit violent. I kissed him back; trying to savor every moment and memorize it, because I knew this was only going to be a one-time thing. His head was now on my lap again, as he fell away from my face.
*
I was lying there. My eyes open in the dark space. I felt a warm body beside mine and looked over to see that it was in fact Gerard. I closed my eyes as he attempted to wrap himself around my small figure. I could feel his bare chest against my back and his warmth all around me. I had no idea what time it was, or where we were for that matter, but I don’t think I cared the least bit for that moment. Nothing could ruin this, nothing. I saw Gerard’s eyelashes flutter, then his eyes open. He yawned and stared at me again as I turned around to face him.
“Morning babe…” he said slowly.
“Hey…” I whispered back.
He kissed me lightly on the lips and said softly, “Oh… I forgot to tell you last night… but… I love you too.”
This was definitely heaven.
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This is my first Frerard one shot I'm really sorry that it sucks!! I've been working on this and neglecting my other fics due to lack of creative ability and overall imagination. My friends helped me think of idea for this so I just want to thank Melzzie for the kissing Ray Toro part ^^. I was thinking more Mikey but she said Toro would be funnier and I agree. Please rate and review! I love you guys so much.
-Rayy
After every kiss with Gerard I felt differently about him. Sometimes he was this total asshole who was in everyone’s faces. At other times he was, you could say, perfect. His green eyes sparkled when he walked into any room and he was capable of making roomfuls of people smile, laugh, cry and sing their hearts out for him. He had the power to make me feel something I had never felt for another human being, nonetheless of the same sex. Sure I had a girlfriend back in New Jersey, but Gerard was always around me. I barely got to see her and we’d talk on the phone, but it wasn’t the same. My love for Gerard was incomparable to any love on this here Earth. It was like my heart was a puzzle and he was that missing piece you would find after giving up and sitting on the couch, only to find that it was still left in the box.
“Thank you so much L.A.!!!!! So long, and good night!” Gerard screamed, finishing Helena and our two-hour set.
I walked off stage blowing numerous amounts of kisses to all the fans that came to see us. I handed my guitar to a tech backstage and went to sit on one of the spare amps with a bottle of water in hand, ready to be rapidly consumed. I took a long drink, only to have Bob run over to me and tip it over further, spilling across my face, hair and clothes (not that they weren’t already soaked).
“Bob! What the fuck man!? I’m gonna kill you for that!!!” I ran after him, dodging the many people as he went out the back entrance onto the small grass patch.
“Hey. Hey Frank… I was just getting back at you for earlier.” He said in defense, catching his breath as he sat on a picnic bench.
We laughed it off and returned inside, only to have the rest of the band look at us like we were crazy. We filed into the dressing room, me getting a towel and wiping my face and trying to dry off my water and sweat soaked bangs. From the corner of my eye I noticed Gerard looking at me from behind. I was bending over on an open backed chair so I figured he was just messing with me.
“I know I’m sexy Gerard, just… don’t look at me like that!” I teased getting up and walking over to him.
“But I can’t help it Frank!” He got up as well and smacked my ass.
“Okay guys… On stage was enough… but this?” Mikey said walking by, drinking a bottle of Coke Zero.
“Save it for the stage okay?” Bob added.
“Fine.” I got up and walked to the table with food on it. I was so hungry it wasn’t funny. I picked up a stick of celery and dipped in what ever the dip was… I didn’t care. Anything was good right about now.
I heard someone yell that we had fifteen minutes before we had to go back to the bus and head off for the next city. It didn’t seem like long but really we were back there just hanging out for over an hour. I hated all this traveling and found the bunks claustrophobic but it was better than before, sleeping on each other and stuff. It might have been better, but to tell you the truth, I enjoyed having my head rest on Gerard’s lap for hours, waiting to get to the next place, pretending to be asleep. I was the first to leave the venue, closely followed by Gerard. Fans lined the way to the bus as I gladly signed autographs. I felt someone grab my ass just then and so many flashes of cameras went off I swear it made me blind for a second. Obviously it was Gerard behind me, who now had his arm around me as we made our way into the bus. I knew he was just doing that for the fans, but to me I wish he meant it, not in a best friend way, but a deeper way. The Gerard Way. I think Mikey was eyeing us from behind, attempting to sign a poster or two. He looked disturbed watching us get into the bus. I stuck my tongue out at him and turned around.
Gerard broke away from me and sat down at the little round table, lighting a cigarette. I headed straight to the bunkroom to change my clothes into something not as constricting. I was wearing my usual bulletproof vest with a dress shirt, black slacks and a red tie. I found a nice black hoodie and jeans to wear as I slipped in and out of my clothes. As for the makeup, I didn’t really care, I just took a moist cloth and wiped as much as I could off my face. I could fix myself once we got to the next show.
Soon enough, we were on the highway again. I heard road noises and the chatter of people coming from the other room. I was still in the bunkroom, about to head out the door. As I turned the handle, there was someone at the other side who turned it at the exact same time. I pulled the door back as he pushed forward. Of course, it had to be Gerard. I was waiting to see his perfectly pale face and his dreamy emerald eyes. I so desperately wanted to have another taste of his lips and maybe this was the right moment. I swung the door open and rushed into his arms, bringing my face just close enough to give him a kiss.
“What the hell are you doing Frank!?”
“Oh shit!!” I said, not realizing who it was.
“Did you think I was G- Oh my god Frank… Ew!!!”
He ran into the bathroom and I heard the water running. At this point I just wanted to go and die. Then behind him, I saw Mikey and Bob… staring with a great intensity at me, then breaking into loud laughter, uncontrollable laughter at the event that had just witnessed.
“Good job Frank! You really did it this time!” Bob said between the laughter.
“Shut up Bob!!!”
“What the hell is going on here?” Gerard came over as everyone stared at him.
“N-n-nothing…” I attempted to cover my mistake.
“Gerard! You should have seen it! Frank just came out and he, and he-” Mikey continued to laugh before finish his sentence.
“He kissed Ray Toro!!!” Bob yelled out to the heavens.
I saw Gerard’s face then. It was a mix of horror, disgust and tears. He ran as fast as he could into the bunkroom, collapsing into his bunk and shutting the curtain. I didn’t know what was going on the least bit. It’s either that Gerard was crying from laughter and how awkward the situation was, or it was because something was burning inside him. I was convinced at the moment that he did love me. More than a best friend love. I pushed my way through a still laughing Bob and Mikey, to go talk to Gerard. I needed to get it out of me.
“G-Gee? Can I come in? It’s just Frank…”
He pushed aside the curtain, letting me know that it was okay to enter. I joined him inside the tiny, dark space, pulling back the curtain as I sat down. I felt his breathing, as he was so close to me, probably a few inches apart. His sobs filled my ears, and it made me want to cry too. I was so confused right now and I didn’t have a proper explanation for the situation. I couldn’t look Gerard in the eyes. It was too painful for me. I longed to be with this man and I was 99% sure he was straight, leaving the 1% for those intimate moments onstage. Neither of us dared to utter a word. I knew I did it in fear of what would happen next. It felt like my heart was just falling to the floor, and was just coming to the point of shattering.
With that, Gerard whispered, “I’m sorry Frank…”
Why was he sorry? This was my fault. I screwed up. Trying to gather myself I said, “It’s not you Gee… It’s me. You’re p-perfect… and I-I l-love… you…”
“W-w-what??” Gerard’s voice was shaking as he let out a sob.
“I l-love you Gerard Way…”
Just then Gerard collapsed into my arms, me barely having enough time to catch him. I looked down and finally had enough courage to stare into his gold-green eyes. I felt him looking into mine as well, his eyes sparkling. I was still extremely confused as to what was happening. Did Gerard really love me? I’d never know unless I asked. I just said three words, that could have changed how Gerard saw me forever, but I knew that it really might have been better off this way.
“Frank…” He began to say, “I think that you’re such an amazing person… and I knew since the day I met you that we’d always have something special.”
He moved his head upwards towards mine and pursed his lips so slightly before they met mine. This was it. I was really kissing Gerard Way, offstage! Compared to our stage kisses, this one was so gentle and tender, not the least bit violent. I kissed him back; trying to savor every moment and memorize it, because I knew this was only going to be a one-time thing. His head was now on my lap again, as he fell away from my face.
*
I was lying there. My eyes open in the dark space. I felt a warm body beside mine and looked over to see that it was in fact Gerard. I closed my eyes as he attempted to wrap himself around my small figure. I could feel his bare chest against my back and his warmth all around me. I had no idea what time it was, or where we were for that matter, but I don’t think I cared the least bit for that moment. Nothing could ruin this, nothing. I saw Gerard’s eyelashes flutter, then his eyes open. He yawned and stared at me again as I turned around to face him.
“Morning babe…” he said slowly.
“Hey…” I whispered back.
He kissed me lightly on the lips and said softly, “Oh… I forgot to tell you last night… but… I love you too.”
This was definitely heaven.
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This is my first Frerard one shot I'm really sorry that it sucks!! I've been working on this and neglecting my other fics due to lack of creative ability and overall imagination. My friends helped me think of idea for this so I just want to thank Melzzie for the kissing Ray Toro part ^^. I was thinking more Mikey but she said Toro would be funnier and I agree. Please rate and review! I love you guys so much.
-Rayy
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